Saturday, August 30, 2003

i was on quite a happy mood b4 i started being online.. thks to gillian n jia han who decided to crash my hse.. we werent doing anythg fun or wad.. but it juz feel gd to b nt doing anythg productive..

it's sorta like yest's mood... went back ny c mrs chang, mrs chan, ms chan etc.. n heard tt ms seet's heavily pregnant n gifing birth nxt mth.. slack w. qianyi qinyi qishan aileen for hours on end.. so sad simone got sch.. well it's juz e gd old times w/o guys n every1 being damn comfortable w/ every1 else n tok abt everythg under e sun.. e gd old days.. haha

den at nite, there's e wedding banquet e musical-- it rox!! like 5 min thru e muscial i was thinking.. tis is worth 50 bucks man.. though every time i c 2 guys together i'll haf e tendency to think tt they're gay but nvm.. it rox!

problems start fr here.. visiting kor at tekong.. wanted to go but only 2 can go. so think of my di n my ma. cuz im damn tired. di din wanna go den i wan to look after him.. then ma pissed off at her going off alone.. lucky i managed to persuade di to go juz now so it's ok..

shdnt haf on e comp in e 1st place.. i on kor's.. den e mouse hang n hang n hang.. so on di's.. shd haf taken tt as a bad omen or sth n not on after all.. den jan smsed.. abt tis person.. i feel that no one's is at fault.. realli.. but it ended up hafing every1 hurt n angry.. y y y?

den i open tis foto sent by my china fren whom i met when i go japan for tt essay thgy in sec 2 (rmb?) was lz to open other fotos so juz clicked next.. n wadeva's in e foto gallery disgusted me so much tt now i m angry n sad n juz wanna cry..

bad thgs dun come singularly huh? was still thinking how life seems to haf improved.. it's juz a delusion.. it is in fact worse. it juz seems nice for that split sec.. w/ old frens etc.. n den family probs (surprise surprise they haf made a comeback.. think mrs chan is rite.. i AM tempermental) n everythg else.. n i juz feel like running away..
escaping..
not doing anythg..
crying..
dying..
oh man y m i here in e 1st place?