Sunday, September 21, 2003

i'm sorry
everything that's planned
everything that i promised
gone
forgotten

i'm sorry for the others too
even more promises
elaborate ones
pityness maybe?
and then?
and then...

in a flash
everything changed
turned into lies
lies shouted unabashedly
tricks, back-stabbing and even more
among the most trusted
conscious had come
and gone
eaten by the dogs

what's left?
an old man
unable to differentiate truth from rumours
what's left?
hurt, sadness
more back-stabbing
distrust

and now i begin to plan again
hoping to put things right
havoc is created in less than 100 days
will order be restored in the next 100 days?
i hope
i wish
i will try

family
what's family?

Frustration
Anger / apprehension
Manipulation / motives / mirage
Illusion
Lies
Yearning -- to find the one who is true

--gm: hope u'll come look 4 me tonite.. i need to talk to u