Friday, May 05, 2006

grumble grumble grumble grumble grumble

wah it's been like 3 wks since i last blogged -_- and i was still wondering why ppl dont update their blogs when i was reading some just now. opps. ive had 2 tests and 1 exam (ie 1 per wk) since the start of sch. i'm expecting one more 2 wks later and then my finals will officially start 3 wks later (wk 5). notice NO study time NO nothing. oh and to add in i've officially 6 lectures and 1 tutorial a week fr nxt week on; for the past 3 weeks ive 8 lectures and 2 tutorials a week. how's that man?

and yes i am starting to get stressed. hadnt been working hard enough last term, so im kinda unsure about everythg. si chen xiang shi kinda feel. and thats not enough. ARG! to be honest i m only stressed for the 1st wk of exams. ive paper on tue thu and fri, and my last tutorial end on the same tue. lectures end the wk b4. and the last test b4 the exam is on thur the wk b4. ie NO TIME!!! see how i die that wk. will juz see a mugger jasmine (haha yes i think i can mug a lot more than what i m doing now)

tis was meant to be a happy/neutral entry. but end up complaining. oh well. must complain 3 wks worth of complaints ;)

anw. it's NICE AND WARM now. yes i m SERIOUS. FINALLY!!! ahha it's been like winter ever since i arrived in sept lor. finally it's WARM WARM WARM. ahah it had been warm for TWO whole days now. yest temp was 11 to 18, and today it's 11 to 24.. YEAH finally a 2 (and that's in the tenth place nt the one place)!! hahaha!! so yes my darling skirts are finally out officially and im nt a freak for wearing them cuz people are too. haha can sense the people ard me (yes even jenny) checking everybody else out and what they are wearing. nice warm temperatures :D

actually, the brits have been playing soccer, pinic-ing on the grass, suntanning since last wk. but errr at that pt in time i still need a thin coat, and that isnt warm enough when the wind blows. so summer hasnt arrived imo. but now i get nice cool wind (inst of COLD and i-wish-it-will-stop wind) and when i open the door, warmth greets me. it's really nice to not need to brace myself for the cold every time i step out of the hse.

summer :D but if summer is at 20+ degrees i'll DIE (like really really DIE) when i go back to singapore.. 30 degrees will be SCORCHING. hahaha helppp!!! but until then.. i shall enjoy the cool warmth and look at people setting up volleyball nets or sun bathing on every single patch of grass. was quite amused to see people sunbathign outside my window. i mean.. there're nicer place ard lor.. rather than outside a hall n by the road but nvm..

let's c..what else to say. oh well along with summer i get INSECTS. rmb the last entry on tat? eww.. story again. Yest i was happily slacking on my comp talking to qianyi and basically nt registering this slight buzzing noise and muted knocking sound (nt on the door knock, but more of say wood on wood kinda sound). and i juz decided to raise my head up and guess what i saw? a wasp/bee (i still cant differentiate) stuck in my lights (it's juz 1 long beam a la the classroom kind and then a cover over it, boxing the light up) and the stupid insect was trapped inside and flying fr end to end. so it knocked its head at 1 end, frantically flew to the other end, knocked its head again and so on. STUPID.

but well i was a bit freaked out la. and mr save-me-fr-insect isnt ard or anywhere nearby. so i was slightly hysterical and complaining to an amused qianyi, who then decided to go to sleep and leaving me with the insect (which by that time had finally found its way out). since it wasnt making anymore noise (and thus nt freaking me out more) i decided to cont doing work, while keeping an eye on it every few minutes (the lights are behind me). but well tis bee/wasp too gung ho la, it decided to explore the lights more, and FELL INTO THE GAP AGAIN. and so the knocking buzzing sound repeats. and finally it climbed out, and then i have like 5 min of peace b4 the cycle repeats. i was SOOO tempted to throw/guide it outta the window but was afraid it'll sting me. so i juz left the window wide b4 leaving for dinner. and it wasnt ard when i came back, so i juz assumed tat it flew out or died knocking it's head (im fine as long as it isnt hidden somewhere waiting to sting me)

haha ok thinking im rather luo suo. mayb can save wadeva tat's below for tml or nxt wk if u r tired / bored of reading. dun tink i'll blog anytime soon cuz i'll be studying for exams/ having exams/ bz enjoying myself like qy n shar and everybody else wth! (everybody else include the US ppl who r happily displaying the time they'll be back home -- like end of apr/may even b4 my exams start -- grrrrrr!!)

oh!! ive been volunteering A LOT. ahha lotsa charity shops in coventry. so i am helping out like 2 h a wk at this place called SCOPE, a charity shop for those with celebral palsy (i think its spelt tis way). it's rather different la. haha the old ladies working there quite nice/ eccentric in a nice way. can imagine them baking cookies and showering love on their children story book style. everytime i go there, one lady will say 'good girl' and ask me where i m from and tell me to study hard etc when i say i m fr warwick (the usual uni they hear abt is coventry which is supposedly quite lan). then yest i was talking to another old lady and she asked where i was from. and she KNEW where singapore is (this little island at the tip of malaya) and nt in the middle of china.. wow!! and thats nt the end. she then asked me if i knew seletar. and then she said she lived there. i must have this incredulous expression on my face, cuz she quickly explained tat she was in the air force. WOW!!!!!!!!!

but the younger ppl working/helping out there are a bit more eccentric. one treats me like an idiot (u know how to hang up clothes dont u? come let me show u. ) and the guy well i juz stay far away cuz he has tis thg abt him tat i dun feel comfortable abt. and the most recent gal speaks with a whisper (or whispers when she speaks-- wadeva). and she doesnt know anythg even though she's (ONLY) been there for a few wks (btw.. they all go down like 3x at wk at least one). well.. i cant go down more often cuz of my lessons etc and it takes like 1/2h to go down n u haveta wait like 15min to 1/2h usually for the bus. so i can only go down if i have a 4h slot free

ok and the other thg ive been doing is Oxfam. its like the biggest charity shop chain in uk (like 770+ shops) and it advocates everythg fr no hunger to no arms to fairtrade etc. they juz opened a shop on campus and askign for volunteer lor. so i went down. gd thg is tat it's on campus. bad thg is tat their shifts are 4h each. trying hard to get them to change tat else they'll have no volunteers nxt yr. anw for tat its more slack. i juz sit at the till n collect money. HA! and the manager austin, he's a bit weird too. he looks anorexic, like super thin. and his teeth are all crooked (ok tat sounds mean). but the worst thg of all is tat he has this habit of sucking/ playing with sth.. n i suspect it's his TOOTH!! like same colour small roundish in his mouth. EWWWW

so yupz tat's 8h a wk on volunteer work. but i like it so there. :D prefer scope when i work on the shop front tho.. see more kinds of ppl and more traffic (im surprised so many ppl go there) yest there was tis lady who got 37 (!!!!) pieces of garment to try. she tried for like 1/2h i think.. wasnt out by the time i left. wunder how much she buy in the end lolz. oxfam's more relac slack sian.

hmm was thinking of commenting abt joan chan. :( hmm juz go joanchansufang.blogspot.com (i think) and take a look. cant imagine if sth like tat happened to me. i'll be SO devastated. :( it's like my whole life is just there, right in front and i cant go on anymore. and i'll probably juz give up. shudders

there're tons of people who are suffering, maybe even more than her. but they are just part of a statistic. joan is different though i duno her personally for she is my age and attended rjc too. she probably made such a huge impact cuz she is so close, a fren of a fren, some1 i probably bumped into b4, as compared to some1 ive nv seen b4. aiyah im starting to rant alr been typing for the past hour and it's like 12am now way past my sleeping time so bear with me.

anw for no apparant reason i decided to go to her blog onlyskindeep.blogspot.com in the afternoon and was directed to the new one. and well its nice to have soooo many ppl fr all walks of life (tho mostly christian -- sorry i still cant stand all the god god stuff) trying to help her by encouraging her, or sharing their story, or praying for her, or searching for traditional/unconventional remedies to help her. there's acupuncture, and tis indian herb, and a russian guy who says he might be able to get information on some breakthrough medicine fr moscow, and stories abt god and to stay happy and optimistic. i guess i wud be happy to die amongst such good intentions and ard my loved ones too.

but will i have such support if i became seriously ill? i think not. =(