Wednesday, August 16, 2006

ive so much negative energy yest tat i dreamt that i drove a car and killed someone and the person is bloody and he stared back at me and i woke crying. i hate myself for having such negative energy

there are times when you know you need to do something. that thing might not be the best way out of any situation. im like tis. i'll only do it if tat's the only way that will appease me and if it helps the situation, no matter how little. i noe it might not help by a lot, but at least it will appease me. i've no idea what i did to get SO worked up over it. even though im starting to think it's rather trivial, the thought of it still irks me.. sigh i hate myself for being so xiao qi

but bu guan duo mo xiao qi, gai zuo de hai shi yao zuo. gai hao de jiu hui hao, gai san de jiu hui san, qiang qiu bu de.

me and my zen..